Fever!

According to the Internet, I am what some described as having "fever phobia". I freak out every time my kid has a fever. Especially if unaccompanied with symptoms. Have u been me? Do u leave in a small town with limited medical facilities? I do. Just get well ok, A!

I am back

What guilt? I reread some of my previous entries in my blog and laughed. It had been awhile. But yes, I still remember the incidents I described. Some of them are still sad to read. They evoke the same feelings as I felt then. Let me see, what has guilt progressed into today? Thanks to time, guilt towards L has lesson to almost nothing now. But talking about what happened almost make my eyes teary. All because I almost lost him. He has grown to be a sweet and cheerful boy. It always break my heart when he said "bye bye Mama" with a resigned tone. He never fails to kiss me goodnight before he sleeps every night. I love little girls but I only love this little boy. He totally stole my heart. I will willingly stay at home to take care of hi single-handedly if not because i have a special request to help out Dad. Even then, I am half hearted n work minimal hours to get by. Who can blame me? They are my life.